It is 1:00am and I am still awake, wide awake. I dont know if its the caffiene I drank tonight or the many things racing through my head at such a late hour. Over the past two-three months I have been so busy with finishing the semester and planning the wedding, and the holidays that I neglected to even notice the things that have been going on around me. My church is doing a Radical Experiment (spending less and sending more to people in spiritual and physical needs around the world) and I have heard but neglected to let it sink in. Our pastor even sent out cards a few months back asking us to all sign/pledge to be involved. Well, I even signed the card all while somehow wanting to be involved yet not actually getting involved (if that makes any sense). Our premarital counseling couple just suffered a huge loss and because I havent been facebook stalking everyone and watching every post that comes across my computer I didnt even notice. My fiance had to force me to go to dinner alone with him on New Years so we could actually have a conversation, and my family (whom I just moved back in with until the wedding) I never see because Im NEVER home.

All of these things I would love to excuse by saying "Im just busy" but that doesnt cut it! I'd like to say that it is somehow impossible to be radical with my spending when such big changes are happening in my life right now. Drew and I just purchased a house (which needs to have atleast something in it to sleep on!) and we are getting married in March so there is a wedding to plan/pay for. I am so blessed to have a wonderful father who is paying for my wedding but that doesnt mean I dont buy things along the way that Ive been seeing in stores, nor does it mean that my dad should be excused from radical spending just because he doesnt attend the same church I go to. My neglection of this deserves much needed prayer and listening to what God has planned and how He wants me to spend the money He has so graciously blessed me with.

Prayer... thats a whole other topic in my life! In the past 6 or so months prayer has been brought to my attention in several different ways. All of which reminded me of how little I actually pray. I have said to friends that prayer is a powerful thing! And I have seen the affects of prayer! The counseling couple I mentioned above just was told that a tumor in their nephews brain miraculously was no longer there!! I was scrolling down their facebook wall today (yes I actually took some time to catch up on friends lives and not think about my own) and saw all the many many many comments and promises of prayer from friends and family and then I saw those prayers answered in the healing of this little boy. Its almost as if I have witnessed the power of prayer but it has been through other peoples prayers, not my own. I have recently been telling myself I want so bad to be a prayer warrior!! To trust in God so much and to remember Him so much that I am constantly in prayer to Him! I am praying and I hope you will pray with me that God will transform my mind and heart to constantly desire community and fellowship with Him through prayer!!
Also please pray that God will slow me down over the next 2 months to enjoy time with my family, and to enjoy my 'fiance', and to be involved in my friends lives, and to focus on how to furnish a home and plan a wedding 'radically' all for HIS glory!